Sunday Feelings

It's been just over a week since my last update. I have thoughts swirling around like crazy in my head. It is absolutely the most beautiful day outside. The kind of weather that one desperately awaits. It's so beautiful that all I want to do is stay outside all day long..I've already been out there once..but looking out my window just doesn't seem to fill the need or longing for the outdoors. It is my connection with God. Is it just me or is there philosophy in everything? I can say something to someone, anyone, about something seemingly insignificant and be moved and have a new level of understanding. So the other day I was thinking about my life in its current state. Everything from work, school, play and my "love life." I've also been is some pretty interesting conversations with those of the opposite sex about relationships. All in the past couple of months I've encountered the following "types" of men: the forever cynical single man who thinks that men and women are to be together for brief "encounters" and that's where it ends, (I know why he thinks that) and there has been the habitual unhealthy relationships man, you know the one searching for the "it factor" and is forever searching for that "flame" that is "innate" in us as human beings, so he's not forever single just forever "the grass is greener on the other side." This guy I wouldn't necessarily say however has an unhealthy relationship with others, because he can and does communicate with others, he does however have an unhealthy relationship with himself. Different people bring out different sides of us and then there is the person who we are when we are all by lonesome. That brings me to my next type. The forever laid back guy. (Currently my favorite.) He's the one that is so laid back and understanding that it almost could come off as a lack of caring. Almost. It's the everyone lives there own life in their own way and come together at moments in time but his social calendar is so full of things that while you will partake you will not be put first kind of sense so have no expectation of it. (This type is the easiest to get a long with in my personal opinion.) The key to happiness? Keep expectations low so you never can be disappointed only pleasantly surprised. Sad I know, but a good fall back attitude sometimes! Then there is the overly obsessive guy. The one who seems to not know when enough is enough. Please stop calling/texting/writing/ and sometimes breathing because you are so incredibly annoying type of guy. The one that thinks that your world should somehow revolve around his. The excessive non stop clinginess that one would almost say is of the female species. But please don't forget the one that only comes around every 2-3 months (also one of my favorites though..so easy to deal with) kind of guy. But the problem with this guy is that he expects everything to be the same and/or different (whichever needs to apply) 2-3 months later when you finally are able to catch up. Oh yes there are so many types of men out there. Good ones, bad ones, skinny ones, phat ones, lonely ones, clingy ones, understanding ones and then the not so understanding ones. I mean for every type of female there is a type of male. Isn't life fantastically "balanced." I posted on Facebook once the following words more or less that isn't it amazing that people will form an opinion about another regardless of what one says or does, even though inaccurate? Amazing not in the awe inspiring kind of way of course more in the audacious kind of way. My whole point was be who you want to be. The person that you are most happy with. Because no matter what people will think whatever they want. (Myself included) I heard the most awesome thing from an old coworker of mine. She said it is none of your business what other people think about you. That statement could not be any more true. Everyone is entitled to their opinion. Whether or not its right! That is funny though because I think everybody is right in a manner of speaking. Different doesn't mean wrong it means different. There is a gauge of right and wrong but in the most generic sense there is no such thing as right or wrong. Like how one does cleans/cooks/eats/sleeps kind of thing? Do you understand what I'm getting at? I hope so. Because the more I write the more that does not seem to be the point of today's works. Which thus brings me to the question, what is today's point? I promise that I started with one. It's more about understanding people to gain a better understanding of ourselves. To live and let live as they say. I have decided that we all want the same thing and could be put like this. Some movie has some quote of something about wanting someone to be a witness to our lives. Yes, yes, that's the one. I would say to be there for us in all times, all places, things, endeavors, trials, journeys, ups, downs, in betweens, sideways, backways and forward ways. Sound familiar to some? Hopefully so. That is what we all want. Funny how everything from the basic structure of the atom and its relationship to the elements and the nature of human beings and those of the Gods all come down to the same concept. They all need a witness in order to be and there is a force that is not seen that holds it together. Mind boggling? Good. If you don't see it then that's okay but I would ask one to think about life in its most basic form of existence. Yes even that of subatomic particles. One could not exist without something else witnessing it. I think I understand more of the whole "if a tree falls in the forest does it make a sound" idea. Isn't life fantastically simplistic and beautiful? I concur. I'm not sure where I am going or whats in store but my eternal nature I can not deny. The relationships that exist cant be negated. The power that surrounds us is innate. With all these powers and energy forces and things acting on us every day, isn't it not also amazing that we still have the power to make choices. I tried explaining to someone who was in search for passion in his relationship that passion is a choice just like everything else. No one is born passionate and no two people can have innate passion that is not co created between the two of them. He of course disagreed with me. He is entitled to his opinion as I am to mine. My only hope would be that he would find happiness, joy and passion in his life that he so fervently seeks from outside sources as opposed from within. I think that the idea is for everyone to find that sense within. At least I sure hope that is the case. On that note, it surely is quite perfect outside.